Nightmare

it's been around 3 months plus since the day i got enlisted? i thought that it would be very fun to be a storeman like what everyone has said,but for me, it isn't so! after i got posted to my unit, my "life" has totally changed. i have been sffering mentally and emotionally in there. i really don't feel happy at all. all i know is that i am supposed to be at the training ground running, doing push-ups etc. but now what i am doing is to just sit in a cage aka. my store where there is no phone, no radio, no reception at all. i can only just sit there facing 4 walls around me.

nobody knows how i feel.

sometimes i really don't know what to do. i feel so pitiful for myself as to how in the hell would i end up in such a place. sometimes i have to be cold/quiet to the others, and i also have to face how people look at me, not to mention their backstabbings. im just fighting for my own rights!!!

also, im alone in this cage as my other colleague always takes MC/go on leave. i do not know how to stay on in such a place. if this persists, i might fall into depression. i really hope God will help me and bring me to a better place; somewhere which i really ought to be at.

in a nutshell, i really wants to say thanks to my lovely baby. she helped me alot during these times and also was there for me when i am down.

baby, i love you. *muacks* :)

all i hope for now is that ????( cannot type the name on blog ) will give me a chance.

12:09 AM