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Friday, June 26, 2009

Nightmare

it's been around 3 months plus since the day i got enlisted? i thought that it would be very fun to be a storeman like what everyone has said,but for me, it isn't so! after i got posted to my unit, my "life" has totally changed. i have been sffering mentally and emotionally in there. i really don't feel happy at all. all i know is that i am supposed to be at the training ground running, doing push-ups etc. but now what i am doing is to just sit in a cage aka. my store where there is no phone, no radio, no reception at all. i can only just sit there facing 4 walls around me.

nobody knows how i feel.

sometimes i really don't know what to do. i feel so pitiful for myself as to how in the hell would i end up in such a place. sometimes i have to be cold/quiet to the others, and i also have to face how people look at me, not to mention their backstabbings. im just fighting for my own rights!!!

also, im alone in this cage as my other colleague always takes MC/go on leave. i do not know how to stay on in such a place. if this persists, i might fall into depression. i really hope God will help me and bring me to a better place; somewhere which i really ought to be at.

in a nutshell, i really wants to say thanks to my lovely baby. she helped me alot during these times and also was there for me when i am down.

baby, i love you. *muacks* :)

all i hope for now is that ????( cannot type the name on blog ) will give me a chance.

12:09 AM

Thursday, May 07, 2009

不管相爱总会有一些低潮我爱你就应该对你越来越好现在只想忽然把你抱的高高看着你笑我就笑别自寻烦恼<3

12:35 AM

Saturday, April 18, 2009

this past few days i really don't know what has happen, it always a 'small problem' that we always against eath other i really feel very sian about it.. today after my camp i rush out as fast as i could just wanna faster go over to ur house.. went i reach ur house i help u put back ur clothe and etc.. and the thing that u put on ur bed i don't even know that u still need to take so i wanna help u put back and u voice out on me.. it's like i feel damn fucking sad and Angy I'm just been good of helping u put in the end kana from u..yes i did show u attitude it's because i don't deserve that.. can't u just thing that i rush out so quietly just wanna reach ur house early and see u? send u to work? haiz.. baby yes sometime i may be at fault but did u thing of ur part ? what u did and what u say? ....

baby i no offend i just want u to know how i feel that's all..

3:59 AM

Sunday, March 29, 2009

ytd morning i sending baby and her dad to changi airport ): cause they going to china xiamen I'm damn sad la i cant see her for 1 weeks ): everyday i will be sending her one email .. and i really fucking miss her la T.T still got 7 days left haiz.. o do we have a chance to chat on phone but cannot chat too long dull too phone bill too ex ):

now i'm counting down to apr 4..

baby i miss u so much ):

12:43 PM

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

baby going to china in 2 to 3 days later ): i will be missing her for the 1 whole weeks. ):

anyway baby now u r busying working and I'm siting here typing haha..

baby u still rmb today after 12am is what? is our 3moth Anni (:

baby happy 3 moth (: i love you.. MORE THAN YOU DO:P

muackz

i will be waiting for u. <3

9:51 PM

Thursday, March 12, 2009